Let the bodies hit the floor.

Woah it's been a while.
I just don't know what to write about.
I have been very up and down lately.
Things have gotten a bit confusing.
But at the same time amazing.
I'm stuck.
And every one is telling me different things.
I don't know what to do D:

I flipping love Degrassi
Its like my cocaine
But I always was like
"This stuff just doesn't happen"
"Its a MAJOR exaggeration"
And it is.
But some of that shit is real.
I'm not going to go into detail, but one I recently saw was very close to my confusing situation
(NO I DON'T SEXT!)
And so now I solely believe in Degrassi even more.

I just watched Nick and Norah
For the twenty-thousandth time
I just love that movie
I was supposed to be doing geometry
PSH. I give up at school.

Jane Doe, I dont think I know you but I know, fersho, that you are beautiful

I cant wait until Christofer Drew posts that song.
Its one of my all time favorites.

Tomorrow is breast cancer awareness day er something.
So we have to wear something pink.
I'm wearing my pink skinnies
And my red Pokemon shirt.
My mother says they don't match,
But screw it.

I had some much crap to do last night.
I'm really not doing to well at this whole "high school" thing

You know the power rangers?
They are my heroes.
Not the new age ones with wings and shit
I'm talking old school
Those were the good old days
I always wanted to be the blue one.
<3

I may have been blushing beyond belief
But the roses made me feel special,
Feel wanted
Thank you.

Im sorry just isnt enough this time.

I didn't get a chance to write last night.
I didn't really have anything to say anyways.
But here goes my lame attempt at something.
I'm really trying.
I'm trying to be happy.
To make things the way they used to.
And every time I think I'm getting there,
I get told I'm not.
Nice to know I've failed you too.

Oh and you sicken me.
I know its wrong.
But you do.
Just stop.
I'm glad everyone else thinks its cute,
I find it disgusting.
So, go ahead I cant stop you from saying it.
But I refuse to hear any of it anymore.

Tomorrow is 10/14/09.
Some may know what that is.
Its six months.
And I'm scared as freaking balls.
I honestly don't want to go to school tomorrow.
Yeah, horrible.
I don't see the point in celebrating such things.
Just love each other.
That's enough for me.
But then again,
I'm a crappy girlfriend.
So wtf would I know, right?

I've never told a lie, and that makes me a liar.

Before you go reading this post I have something to say.
I'm not posting this so people can judge me.
Ive already got enough of that
So when you read these posts
Don't turn around and tell me I'm over reacting
Or I'm depressing
YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT I EFFING FEEL LIKE
Don't like it?
Tough balls.
Get off my blog.
This is more for me then you anyways.
With that said.
Still in a down mood.
Ive talked to tons of my friends
Seems I've been doing a crappy job at seeming happy at school
They have all noticed
Noticed that I haven't been happy
Even since before school started
I wish I could turn back time
See why things got all screwy.
I'm not sure but I wish I knew
I wish I knew how to make it better
I cant even talk to people because I cant explain how I feel
I just know how I feel
And it isn't good.
Please help me.

So tell me darling do you wish we'd fall in love?

So basically,
I'm in a shitty mood.
I don't know why.
I just am.
I hate when this happens.
This wave of down-ness just washes over me.
Its not fair.
I want to make it go away.
I haven't yet found a cure.
I don't even want to hang out with my friends.
I don't want to text.
It was a chore to even type this.
All I want to do is lay down in a ball and sleep for days.
But I'm not like "tired".
I don't get it.

We'll speak of what a waste I am.

So i forgot to post one yesterday.
Well no, didn't forget.
I just had too much homework :/
Like I said, last days of the week are busy.
There was a game tonight.
And guess who wasn't there?
Yeah, me.
But I stayed home so my mom didn't have to be alone.
I feel I did my good deed for a while.
Those don't happen to often for me.
But two good things did happen tonight.
I wish I could have been there to witness.
But I will live (:
This week was so stressful with that big project.
Yet it flew by.
This year has flown by.
Like seriously, almost report card time.
I feel I'm doing pretty well.
Lets cross our fingers.
Anyways there wasn't much that needed to be said.
Just wanted to post.
Mkaythanksbye.
(:

You gave me butterflies, at the mailbox.

WELL HAY THERE (:
Remotely good mood today.
Besides this stupid project :/
I'm taking a mental relaxation break.
(Actually I just wanted to sound smart).
Anyways,
Today was okay.
But Ive come to realize something about high school.
And that is that there's good days (Not much hw)
And bad days (TONS of hw)
The bad days usually come at the end of the week
Because I procrastinate like friggen crazyyyy.
(I almost put procreate) (Which i DON'T do like crazy)
I suppose I should get back to the time lines
But I don't wanna just yet.
Jamming to music has been my one stress reliever.
You should try it some time.
Just some friendly advice (:
Well I guess I should go.....
PeaceToYoMomma.
<3